ASPIRE – My Word for 2021

Aspire: to look up and see a whole world of possibilities ahead. To look back and see your mistakes but to feel them carry you along in your journey – their teachings help you navigate which way to go and what to do next. To claw up the twisting road, the road many have traversed before, where dreams and hopes live short lives but have long deaths. Or to plunge into the valley of the unknown, the less travelled, where dreams and hopes can bloom into success but without any guarantees and with the strings of doubt attached.

Aspire: to abandon the worries that come with not knowing and never going. To chase the future you desire – let in the life that awaits.

Written by Cheyenne Holborough and edited by Cheyenne Holborough, Elizaveta Kolesova, Amy Barlow, Jamelia White-Akingbade and Reka Furton

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The Butterfly Ballroom

By Nisha Patel

Sparkling chandelier, hanging like a magnificent sculpture of stars, 

twinkling to bless the night in crimson passion, close to each intimate touch. 

A beautiful ball of butterfly attendees, where elegant colours capture the spotlight.

Fluttering in flamboyance, their wings dazzle in show and tell, 

the romance of wearing the grace of lace, enchants a spark of loveliness,

in which the love refuses to hide under table cloth, but brighten under glass décor.

Flirting like fireflies near the floral lanterns, they leave the candle sticks

to marry their candle holders, under the sculpture of stars. 

Keeping peace between butterflies and light, under dreamy darkness.

A ballroom dance crowns the night, the glimmering diamond of a ball ring.

Partnering to their lovers, they fly with each other, hearts together, 

like violins expressing love behind a curtain of waterfall.

Some butterflies share magic, clutching onto the sidelines of the French rose silk.

Other butterflies make wishes under the chandelier, praying to protect the ballroom,

a sanctuary for romance with wings, to reach the night.

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Ballet Performances to Watch, Courtesy of the Royal Opera House: 

 

 Review of Romeo and Juliet Beyond Words: 


I would highly recommend this ballet film to fans of the romantic genre and all things elegant. Starring William Bracewell as Romeo and Francesca Hayward as Juliet, this beautifully performed film captures my heart and fills my head with butterflies. There is no dialogue, which I found more engaging as the audience is left to feel for themselves, allowing their imaginations to flourish. The lack of dialogue also makes this performance much more accessible to those from different language backgrounds. The classical music in the background such as Dance of the Knights by Prokofiev, really brings  the scenes to life. With no words, the vision becomes even more unique to watch, as the romance blossoms on screen. 

The ballet creates a touching bridge between this classic love story and the power of pointed shoes. The acting, along with the imagery, brings you to the heart of the moment. I could feel myself wearing Juliet’s shoes and feeling all her emotions from my head to my toes. I simply couldn’t take my eyes off this film, and the enchanting atmosphere it created in my head, and in my room. The body language of the protagonists portray the sequence of events wonderfully – I could feel Romeo’s heart warming passion for Juliet through his actions. I so greatly admire the attention to detail in the making of this film, because it sewed the whole story together and transported me to their romantic world. 

I first watched this ballet film on a chilly winter evening, and I think this made the experience a touch more magical. I would encourage others to try watching it just as I did. To this day, I still feel drawn to the beauty of the film: my attachment to it will stay forever. There have been many films on Romeo and Juliet, but this was my favourite, because it made me pay closer attention to the visual art of ballet and how classical music feeds life to a love story. The beautiful silence elevated the scenes of suspense. I hope you all take the time to watch this glorious work of art. 

Written by Nisha Patel, edited by Mel Kartal

A Note from an Anti- Anti-Valentine’s Dayer

WRITTEN BY SHANE CHASE

We all are familiar with the sour feeling of embarrassment that Valentine’s Day produces. Pretty much everyone has awful childhood memories of not being chosen and if you haven’t I’ll invite you to picture for a moment being single on this day of love and coupling before the self-love movement kicked off in full force. But what is the point of this kind of celebration, anyways?

What you’ve probably heard turns out to be true: Valentine’s Day is a Hallmark holiday based on nauseating consumerism that exploits our desire to be romantically involved to sell, sell, sell. No event in history links February 14th to romance, whatsoever. It’s essentially a lie that corporations created to make money but even with this knowledge, it can be difficult to see all the pretty faces receiving Valentine’s Day flowers and cards and thoughtful gifts while waiting for one that never arrives. That said, this acknowledgment of the obvious downfalls of the holiday can act as a meaningless qualifier, that is until you look at the benefits of a surface level expression of desire and romance. Seeing people express love towards each other, or at least a symbolic form of love, on a visceral, human note reminds us that it is possible to get along with each other and to form (hopefully) meaningful relationships; which is extremely important when you are nodding out on today’s news and have a small panic attack every time a new article pops up. It’s valuable to have a holiday that is a celebration of love and thankfully now we’re accepting of various forms of it.

This is a heartfelt, gooey time when we allow ourselves to write shitty love poems for our crush and it isn’t going to be awkward to slip them the note or sent them a text. Okay, maybe that’s a lie, it could go wrong, but at least with the lens of Valentine’s Day on, we can accept the sentiment. I think that Valentine’s Day is flawed but the expression of affection, admiration, chocolate, love, and the damn cuteness of it all is worth something. So don’t be afraid to get vulnerable and show as much love as you can in these difficult times. 

Finding you finding me

You have changed me. 

You turned my life around unexpectedly. 

 

Thank you, for  filling my heart with joy, happiness and satisfaction. 

Thank you, for giving me reason. 

 

You were exactly what I didn’t know I needed. 

Everything I didn’t ask for but I still received it. 

Your silence, while everything else was screaming in my face. 

You are my safe place, my saviour in a way. 

 

Because of you I know peace, because of you I know change. 

You led me across the river, as light and soft as a feather.

You gave me direction, you gave me hope. 

You were meant to be a getaway, a breath when I was gasping for air.

 

Oh, you were so much more.  

You approached me, held on to every cell, you never let go. 

You changed me into someone better.

Because of you I am.

 

To my Lover, Dublin. 

 

  • WRITTEN BY LISA-MARIE HÜBNER AND EDITED BY MEL KARTAL
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Love poems, Longing

WRITTEN + EDITED BY MEL KARTAL

This year-long quarantine has deprived us of most, if not all human contact. It has sucked every last droplet of romance in our veins dry, and has left us all in a large, fleshy heap of depressed skin and bones… For some, this feeling has been around since the beginning of time. For others, romance and intimacy are a taboo, something shameful. But despite any societal pressure, or any single person telling you that what you’re feeling is wrong, there will always be that visceral feeling of longing within every human, no matter how hard you try to suppress it. But all is not lost. Here are a couple of poems that may remind you: with absence, the heart does indeed grow fonder.

Little Beast

BY RICHARD SIKEN

4

He had green eyes,

so I wanted to sleep with him—

green eyes flecked with yellow, dried leaves on the surface of a pool-

You could drown in those eyes, I said.

The fact of his pulse,

the way he pulled his body in, out of shyness or shame or a desire

not to disturb the air around him.

Everyone could see the way his muscles worked,

the way we look like animals,

his skin barely keeping him inside.

I wanted to take him home

and rough him up and get my hands inside him, drive my body into his

like a crash test car.

I wanted to be wanted and he was

very beautiful, kissed with his eyes closed, and only felt good while moving.

You could drown in those eyes, I said,

so it’s summer, so it’s suicide,

so we’re helpless in sleep and struggling at the bottom of the pool.

One Girl

BY SAPPHO

TRANSLATED BY DANTE GABRIEL ROSSETTI

                                I

Like the sweet apple which reddens upon the topmost bough,

Atop on the topmost twig, — which the pluckers forgot, somehow, —

Forget it not, nay; but got it not, for none could get it till now.

                               II

Like the wild hyacinth flower which on the hills is found,

Which the passing feet of the shepherds for ever tear and wound,

Until the purple blossom is trodden in the ground.

Mayakovsky

BY FRANK O’HARA

1

My heart’s aflutter!

I am standing in the bath tub

crying. Mother, mother

who am I? If he

will just come back once

and kiss me on the face

his coarse hair brush

my temple, it’s throbbing!

then I can put on my clothes

I guess, and walk the streets.

2

I love you. I love you,

but I’m turning to my verses

and my heart is closing

like a fist.

Words! be

sick as I am sick, swoon,

roll back your eyes, a pool,

and I’ll stare down

at my wounded beauty

which at best is only a talent

for poetry.

Cannot please, cannot charm or win

what a poet!

and the clear water is thick

with bloody blows on its head.

I embrace a cloud,

but when I soared

it rained.

3

That’s funny! there’s blood on my chest

oh yes, I’ve been carrying bricks

what a funny place to rupture!

and now it is raining on the ailanthus

as I step out onto the window ledge

the tracks below me are smoky and

glistening with a passion for running

I leap into the leaves, green like the sea

4

Now I am quietly waiting for

the catastrophe of my personality

to seem beautiful again,

and interesting, and modern.

The country is grey and

brown and white in trees,

snows and skies of laughter

always diminishing, less funny

not just darker, not just grey.

It may be the coldest day of

the year, what does he think of

that? I mean, what do I? And if I do,

perhaps I am myself again.

For Willyce

BY PAT PARKER

When i make love to you

i try

with each stroke of my tongue

to say

i love you

to tease

i love you

to hammer

i love you

to melt

i love you

and your sounds drift down

oh god!

oh jesus!

and i think

here it is, some dude’s

getting credit for what

a woman

has done

again.

A mantra against imposter syndrome

by Nadia Siad

We often think that other people know more than we do, that when we get a high grade, we ‘just got lucky.’ We self-criticise and think our work is never good enough. This results in a lack of productivity and stress. Imposter syndrome is sometimes so normalised that we don’t even recognise it for what it is. 

It is natural to be your harshest critic, but it is also important to be kind to yourself. We’re all only human, we’re not made to be perfect and produce perfect work all the time, so let go of perfectionism.

Remember that people know as much as you do. Yes, there will be subjects where someone has more knowledge than you, but there will also be subjects where you have more knowledge than others. 

So be kind to yourself and know that you’re not alone.

Upcoming online theatre events

List compiled by Charlotte Kwong

This is just a small selection of the wonderful theatre that is available to access from the comfort of your own home. If you are able to do so please do support the theatre industry in this time so that they are able to continue providing content like this for us. 

Free

Mint Theatre – 6 free streamed productions: Jan 4 – June 13

Othello: Feb 4 – 6

https://www.youtube.com/c/stratfordfestival

Romeo and Juliet: Until 31 March 

The Taming of the Shrew: Mar 4-6

https://www.youtube.com/c/stratfordfestival/

My Beautiful Laundrette: Until the Curve re-opens

Paid

Gatsby a Musical: Feb 12 – 14. Price: £20, or £15 if booked before Feb 6

Mischief Movie Night In: Various Dates Until Feb 14. Price: £10 per show

https://www.mischiefcomedy.com/our-work/mischief-movie-night-in/about

The Colour Purple: Feb 16 – Mar 7. Price: £20 per household

Treason the Musical: Mar 12 – 14. Price: £10 if booked before March 1

https://treasonthemusical.com/

A Midsummer Nights Dream: Mar 31. Price £10 (+booking fee)

https://www.ticketsource.co.uk/shake-festival-midsummer

The inaugural poem: a response

by Nia Reynold

After 1460 days of a society removing their Thalia to reveal the ugly Melpomene that had long been festering underneath it, a ray of light seems to have broken through with the delivery of the inaugural poem “The Hill We Climb”. This piece of literary iridescence was written and performed by the 22-year-old Amanda Gorman, who is now the youngest inaugural poet in U.S. history. As a young black woman myself, I am in awe to see someone who is so close to my age make living, breathing history. Become living breathing history. Exist as living, breathing history. I can imagine that in the very moment that she began to address the 46th President of the United States, every little black girl was entranced by their tv screen as they saw themselves utter art articulated from turmoil to those who are the byproduct of turmoil and those who incited it, to begin with. Those little girls saw their skin glow on screen in the same way Gorman’s poem did, they heard words that had circulated their minds but didn’t know how to express, said to a congregation of faces they never would’ve thought they would be allowed to see. They felt their souls seen and vulnerable yet soaring in a phoenix-like disposition without the fear of its kindling being drowned. Those little black girls saw themselves for what they truly are, for what we truly are – light but purified. 

Amanda Gorman, thank you for showing us a glimpse of what the top of the hill looks like.

The most anticipated books of 2021

by Daniela Elizarraras Acitores

Here are just a few of the most exciting books of 2021. Add your recommendations in the comments below…and be sure to shop independent if you can!

Malibu Rising by Taylor Jenkins Reid

PUB DATE: May 27, 2021

New York Times bestselling author of Daisy Jones & The Six and The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo is making a fast return.  After nearly two years since her last novel got released, Taylor Jenkins Reid is making our quarantine period a bit more exciting with her new novel coming out.  

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Sunflower Sisters: A Novel by Martha Hall Kelly

PUB DATE: March 30, 2021

After selling over a million copies of Lilac Girls, a novel about an American philanthropist who helped young girls be released from Ravensbruck concentration camp.  A heartbreaking story incredibly well written, that left us wanting more of Martha’s magic…the waiting is soon to be over.  Sunflower Sisters will be her third book, all based on true events- like her past novels, this third book promises an emotional journey, but one that cannot be missed. 

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The Prophets by Robert Jones Jr.

PUB DATE: January 5, 2021

After reading James Baldwin’s 1985 essay, which included topics such as sexuality, hyper-masculinity, and racialized violence, Robert Jones Jr. felt relief and with that seed he created his first novel The Prophets.  It might be his first book but it fast became a New York Times Instant Bestselling novel.  The Prophets is said to be a deeply profound, unsettling, but moving story rotating around a forbidden union between two enslaved young men and the shattering but poetic story they created.  

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A Swim in a Pond in the Rain: In Which Four Russians Give A Master Class on Writing, Reading, and Life by George Saunders 

PUB DATE: January 12, 2021

After twenty years of teaching, New York Times Bestseller and Booker Prize winner, George Saunders is sharing with us what he and his students have discovered over the years.  This book will take the reader on an exploration of great writing but also it will take one inside the mind of a brilliant writer.  Glennon Doyle, author of Untamed, has been reading Sauders’s masterpiece nonstop and called it exceptional reading.  

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The Good Sister by Sally Hepworth

PUB DATE: April 13, 2021

Goodreads announced The Good Sister to be one of the “Most Anticipated Books of 2021” and “The Big Mysteries and Thrillers of 2021.”  After her very entertaining and twisty novel The-Mother-in-Law Sally is making a return with her psychological thriller/ domestic drama about two twin sisters who seem perfect on the outside but what is perfect always breaks.  

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The Other Black Girl by Zakiya Dalila Harris

PUB DATE: June 1, 2021

The Other Black Girl seems like what everyone has been waiting for, it was named the most anticipated book of 2021 by The Washington Post, Harper’s Bazaar, Goodreads, and about seven other sources.  A novel about the tension between two young Black women in the publishing industry, described to be “shars as a knife.”

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The Four Winds by Kristin Hannah

PUB DATE: January 27, 2021

A very busy year for the brilliant Kristin Hannah.  Author of twenty four books, including two that are being turned into screen productions this year: Firefly Lane, release date February 3, and The Nightingale, December 22.  With a busy schedule her new book The Four Winds is a testament of hope, a deeply moving story about the strength and bond between a mother and daughter.  Delia Owens, author of Where The Crawdads Sing stated that this novel is, “Powerful and compelling.”  

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Klara and The Sun by Kazuo Ishiguro 

PUB DATE: March 2, 2021

Kazuo Ishiguro, the meticulous author of The Remains of the Day and Never Let Me Go, which were both made into acclaimed films and have each sold more than two million copies, is publishing a new novel this year.  Klara and the Sun, is the first publication by Kazuo Ishiguro since he was awarded the Nobel Prize in Literature.  It is said to be a thrilling feat of world-building, and a heartbreaking novel of tenderness and humanity. 

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For our YA lovers!

A Pho Love Story by Loan Le

PUB DATE: February 9, 2021

Loan Le might be a newbie at writing novels, this being her first one, but as she works in the publishing world she knows what she’s doing.  Le’s novel has reached many Most Anticipated 2021 Books lists and it seems like it is a book worth keeping an eye out for.  A romcom in which two Vietnamese-American teens fall in love but must navigate their new relationship and families’ feud.    

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Fat Chance, Charlie Vega by Crystal Maldonado

PUB DATE: February 2, 2021

Crystal’s debut novel, but a powerful one.  A sensitive, funny, and painful coming-of-age story, which focuses on social issues and has been the book many readers have been waiting for.  Mason Deaver,  bestselling author of I Wish You All the Best praised this bool as: “This book feels like your best friend giving you a hug—it’s warm and sweet and healing.”

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A personal review of ‘Euphoria’

by Stella Nahr

I heard from many people that Euphoria was a really good show. So, when lockdown came around again and my need for entertainment and distractions rose, I gave it a try. The show was so addictive and the episodes so thrilling that it was hard not to binge it all at once. Instead, I made it my little treat. When I was especially productive that day, I allowed myself to watch one episode in the evening. Unfortunately, Euphoria only has 8 episodes that are available to watch outside the USA right now, so my number of little treats were limited, and I saved the last episode for a long time until I eventually finally watched it.  

At first Euphoria might seem like just another teen show, in the USA, in random suburbs with a random high school. You might think of some standard characters, like the mean girl, the popular football player, the beauty, the cheerleaders, the weirdos. To some extent these labels might fit, but there’s much more to the characters: flaws, raw emotions, pain, confusion. They are not one-sided at all and rather come across as fully human, so convincingly, that you almost forget it’s fictional. Or is it all actually? 

The omniscient narrator of the show, is Rue (Zendaya Coleman), 16, mentally ill and just back from rehab after an overdose. Even though she knows that her drug addiction is tearing her family apart, she has no desire to stay clean. She is inspired by the writer of the show, Sam Levinson’s own experiences. As a teenager he struggled with addiction, and worked that experience into Rue’s character. 

When Rue meets her new best friend Jules (Hunter Schafer), she is determined to stay off drugs for her. Soon, Rue and Jules become more than just friends and it becomes clear that Rue is in love with her. She starts to depend her recovery on Jules, which puts her under pressure as she has her own problems to deal with. We watch them fall into a painfully toxic relationship, sweet and heartbreaking at the same time. 

There are more characters who tell their story, such as Maddie, who’s in a manipulative relationship with Nate. Even though he physically abuses her, she can’t break free from his spell. Kat is changing her image from shy nice girl to a bondage bad bitch and dips into online sex work. Cassie is struggling with a new boyfriend, dealing with an alcoholic mom and missing father. Rue’s drug dealer Fez is a dropout of high school, doing business with gangsters but always tries to protect her as if she was his little sister. 

All those characters deal with issues that we all are to some extent familiar with and even if we’re not, we know someone who is, which makes the show so close to life and relatable. 

Not only the characters are outstanding but also the camera work and cinematography. A lot of the time the background is a combination of light and dark, like fireworks in a night sky, Rue is standing in the front, glitter around her sad eyes. The makeup in the whole show reaches another dimension, Jules always has little eyeliner artworks around her eyes, all in all a lot of glitter is involved, which is now called ‘the euphoria style’. 

The fact that a lesbian love story with a trans girl, also played by a trans actress, is the main focus is another thing that I cherish about this show. It is so important to tell these stories. The heteronormative version of love has been told too many times. Queer love exists and trans people exist and it’s important that this is normalised. Euphoria clears the way for a new generation, as it archives what has been overdue for too long: seeing a trans girl on tv, whose identity is not about being trans. She is her own well-rounded character with her own issues and a story. This is what makes Euphoria so special to many people, me included. If you haven’t watched it yet, give it a try, you might fall in love with it as well.